I sucked ass at being a mom today. Some days, I feel like Iām not doing a good job at this mom thing. Because itās so fucking hard. I know, I know, itās always worth it, and I love my kids. But man, when did it get so hard?
Today I yelled too much at them, they watched too much tv, I fed them pasta, which they glazed over, picking out most of the nutrients.
I yelled at them to stop yelling (funny huh?), I told my son to stop calling his sister āpoopy headā at least thirty times today. Something I never thought I would be doing. ā£
As I write this caption, I am sitting on my bedroom floor. Hiding. Trying to get a moment of silence. Itās so hard some days. And I know Iām not alone.
Thereās no āsilver liningā to this post.
Being a mom is fucking hard.
Thatās all.
Everyday, I tell myself ātomorrow! Tomorrow will be the day I donāt yell. Tomorrow will be the day I talk calmly all day to them. Tomorrow will be the day they wonāt fight with each other. Tomorrow. Tomorrow will be better. Easier.ā ā£
And whenever I lay them down to bed at night, I look at those beautiful souls I created and think āhow could I ever be so mad at them?ā Itās a routine I have had for the past few years now.
Being a mom is fucking hard. And I suck at it a lot of the time. But thatās okay, because Iām trying my best to raise good, kind, decent, loving human beings, in a world so cold. ā£
Thereās no way thatās going to be easy.
Keep going mama, we got this. Even if we fucking suck some times.
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