I used to be the wild girl, could have four or five drinks and be dancing like no ones watching. My feet would have been overworked so much that I’d stop feeling the pain. I had confidence to talk to anyone, had more energy then anyone should. I was thin. I could go into any shop, picked what I liked and walk out without trying it on. I didn’t worry about later, or tomorrow. I had late nights and slept through mornings.
Then I had kids !! …
Alcohol means hangovers and there is no time for them. Sleep is so precious. I’m way too tired to dance, I wear practical shoes. My idea of a good night is watching Netflix in my jammies. I have early nights and wake up before morning. My heart is more full than it’s ever been… BUT…
It all kinda makes me feel invisible. I am invisible. And that can hurt. There are still parts of the old me that I miss. It’s like this – you are born alone, you spend years developing who you are, becoming an independent woman… and then suddenly you become, someone’s mum, someone’s partner, someone who is too exhausted to enjoy life.
That’s why mums need breaks. That’s why when things get too much you need and you needn’t feel guilty for having the time to retreat from that life and become you again. When your life becomes beautiful and loved up but also relentless, you deserve to be you again. In any way that is. Exercise, partying, prosecco with the girls. Any way you won’t feel invisible anymore.
There is no such thing as “now I’m a mum I can’t do those things” it’s even more reason to do them! Don’t lose your spark. She’s still in there. You’ll come back… you’ll be the old you again… but in sensible shoes 💖
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